My college, Somerset Christian College, takes on a narrative theology approach to teach us about God, and one of the things that they teach us constantly is the elements of story…here is my original story for you to read and comment on:
The Alphabet’s Presence
I do not enjoy going back in my life. It seems to me that whenever I go back, I get a major headache and something along the lines of an ulcer. For the purposes of your inquiry, I will elaborate…
You see, I could not talk growing up. I could make noises that made no sense, but I could not talk. I saw the world differently than most would ever intend on seeing it. I could not handle the sound of a vacuum cleaner. I would amuse myself with the world that was somehow handed to me on a silver plate.
I felt this water on my head one day. It was a cold feeling that would never go away. The people around me made this seem like a joyous occasion. Why would this be? I was shivering over the fact that I felt this cold water. I was crying out to something that I never could see if it was there. I thought I could trust the alphabet that I have consulted with in terms of my issues. It seemed like he was not there.
I’ve seen images in my head of a king. I did not know who this king was but it seemed like I would see him once a week fighting with some other guy who I had no idea who it was. These would be images that seemed very violent. The fights would never end and I always thought that the king would win, but it just never ended. I could not look to this woman who would sing to me all day. She would never understand this fight that I saw in my head. I could not explain it.
I really felt much more love from watching this boy flying over all of these clouds with this dog like creature who seemed to be a dear friend. He would help this boy escape the school that he was at. I wanted to escape the world and go to another just like he did. Not that the world he was in was any better, but at least it was a place where he was accepted more than I was here. I always seemed to fall asleep watching this because those were the best dreams that I had watching this.
All of a sudden there’s this thing that has a cover and these pieces of paper in it with these symbols that I’m able to understand. I don’t know how I do, but the singing woman will have nothing of it. I tend to not involve her in things that I don’t understand. She does not have the thoughts that I do. She’s told me so. I will continue to pretend that she does not exist even though I depend on her to do the things that I want to do. I can’t seem to stop lifting these things up to “read” them. Oh, they are called “books”. That’s that I read in one of these “books” that has these images that I can now name. I somehow think that I should depend on these books for everything. Anything that I get to do with my dear comrade, the alphabet, is fine by me.
I’m not doing so well with vacuum cleaner right now. I’d much rather the singing woman’s voice rather than the distracting vacuum cleaner. I hear unusual voices that the singing woman cannot understand. It’s more than the noise. It’s something that repeats again and again. I don’t quite see why…now…I’m starting to…enjoy it. Oh, I could never reveal it to the singing woman. She must never know.
Due to the fact that the alphabet is only appearing in the books that I’m reading, it’s becoming something that I’m learning how to do at quite a rapid pace. I can’t stop learning about this world around me. I’m starting to notice the leaves on the ground, the birds in the sky, and it’s a very big world for me. As long as I can find everything around me from my friend the alphabet in the books, I will be able to understand why these things seem to be much safer than I could think.
I start reading about this person called a girl, and before I know it, I meet a girl…but why is it that I’m starting to feel much more attached to this girl than my previous lover the alphabet. I learn that her name is Allison. Allison…she really does a wonderful job of looking just like the girls in my books. She is not like the singing woman, but they both have the same kind of hair. They both love bows in their hair, but her singing is very different. Oh, dear Allison who comes from the books I read. May I hold your hand like the boy in the book does? May I show you my friend alphabet?
I go back to alphabet, and he tells me that I should. But how? These are just pictures with words. The pictures look nice, but they don’t tell me anything but that I should talk to the girl. Talk to the girl? If I can’t trust the singing woman, I cannot trust Allison. Something inside of me has changed. The alphabet is trying to get me to do something, and I don’t think he knows me any more. No longer will I do anything that the alphabet tells me to do. I will never interpret the alphabet’s words again.
I turn away from the books, and gain a new friend. His name is brother. At least this is something from my memories with the alphabet. All of a sudden, the singing woman, cares so much more about brother. I knew that I could never trust her. Her singing now no longer helps me. She has lost her voice in my life. She tries and tries to lure me with my singing, but all of a sudden I start to feel hurt. I start to see my life fall apart around me and I start to feel another world around me. A much scarier world that I could never have imagined at any point in my life…
What was I to do? All of a sudden the singing woman brought me to a place that I have never heard of before. I met a bunch of men and women who looked at me, asked me questions about what alphabet used to tell me. They wrote down many things about me that I didn’t understand. The singing woman went in with these people while I was sitting outside. She came out, looked at me, and then brought me home.
I felt lost without the alphabet, but how could I ever explain to him about how I felt about what he told me. I then saw this book with a rainbow. It was about this man named Noah who had this big boat. Then alphabet showed me what happened to Noah and the people around him. It was a very scary story to me, but then the sky showed a beautiful rainbow. The colors in that picture reminded me of the leaves that I saw when I was still with alphabet. I could not help but laugh and smile seeing this rainbow. Then I read another word. This word was a word that I’ve heard before, but I didn’t understand when I first heard it. I was too busy looking at the fight. This was the word “God”. And there was another word…”promise”. This word made me realize that alphabet was not mad at me. Alphabet protected me throughout my years of living. He allowed me to learn more about the scary world around me. My mouth was opened and I was able to talk to the singing woman and her voice started to sound just like it did when I was first living. Everything turned to music for me. I started to sing like the singing woman, and I still do to this day, thanks to the alphabet…and to this day, I know that alphabet will be with me…to the omega…
Let me know what you think…
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